Today would have been my Mom's 60th birthday. And I have longed and dreamed to have been able to celebrate it BIG! ...Lavishing her with pampering head to toe, showering her with exquisite gifts and surrounding her with beauty morning till night, flowers, flowers and more flowers ( of course irises as I sent her every birthday!) The party would be the most elegant event. Her table would have been set like no other. We would end the evening dining on a feast among dearest friends and family. I would love to have given her this " day like no other".
While we cherished , loved and honored her dearly. A part of me will always think I should have celebrated her birthdays "bigger". Though I know no amount of celebrating would have been truly worthy.
My heart smiles knowing she celebrates " this day like no other" always and forever. For she is surrounded by nothing but beauty and elegance, like my eyes have never seen. She is lavished with gifts no amount of earthly money could ever buy. She has no need for pampering for she has no pain, no stress, is never tired and has no need to relax! She feasts eternally on joy at a table of perfection . And though I long to love on her this birthday, I know she is in the presence of love no amount of friends and family could ever bestow upon her on " this side".
So I made birthday banner....for my youngest son who turns three on Saturday. I found out I was pregnant with him within a month after she passed. Perhaps he was sent to " carry me through" for I have always had his birthday to look forward to! And as I cut and glued and ironed each piece, I thought of all the moments she loved making things like this for us growing up. And with each cut I honored her life as gratefulness, joy and love filled my heart. And while I am not throwing Mom a huge party today. I realize I now celebrate her " big" in ways everyday in my heart and life, not just on her birthday. And while I would have given Mom a gift today. Instead she gave one to me. And January 15th always be " a day like no other" for me.
